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It was like an obscene phone call from nature. - Satanic Panic in the Attic
girlsetsfire
girlsetsfire
It was like an obscene phone call from nature.
I think it's important that if you spend a significant amount of time on anything, you better have accomplished something [however small it is]. With that being said, I must tell you the story of how I only achieved 3 hours of sleep [and a headache], due to black holes, and a group of morons that I can't prove exist [but if they don't they will].

There I was, cozy in my bed [the room was dark. the fan soothing my soul]. In the distance I heard my sweet feline, Penelope Carrots, crying mournfully. I knew she was carrying that giant green ball she always does, when she realizes everyone has gone to sleep, and she feels lonely. Everything made sense. Life existed only for my sleeping pleasure.

Of course, as always, it was then, that my heart and soul were ready for a brain adventure. I was getting into "my" spaceship, and the sky was the most beautiful shade of pink. Penelope was there with her giant green ball. She winked at me often, and I smiled. Smiled, for her quiet wisdom, and for the exciting trip which was to come [but didn't]. It was time to explore black holes.

I paused for a moment [froze the picture of winking kitties and pink sky], to bake crisply in the warmth of the brilliant metaphoric ways of the black hole. [in the great sea of metaphores, black holes eat my soul]. I can't help but feel [intensely] that humans are linked [immensely]. We are the black hole, and life is the star heading straight for the eye.

But, then I had a thought so horrid [to me], that my feet stamped the bed, and I imagined everything I loved exploding [just like THAT].

The thought went something like...I bet somewhere there is a group of stupid jerks who think black holes are "fucking sweet dude", for no other reason than they have no idea what they are about, and things of mystery are "fucking sweet dude".

And this is fine and well [right?]. The soul smasher is that I bet they are in some shitty "punk" or "indie rockerrr" band. And I bet [ 3 toe curls and a cringe ] that they call themselves The Black Holes. They only pay attention to life long enough to make sure they appear "super fucking rad, and hip".

I think, if I were to only hate one thing [and i do], it would be the fact that so many people live their life not even knowing [or attempting to acknowledge] that is it there. It is! And then they grow old and bitter [or not-they die young and stupid-er? DERRR], with nothing to say except "I fucked my shit up" [or they don't. which is worse? i am not to say]. The whole thing makes me sad and disappointed, which makes me angry [because i don't understand].

So, first thing this morning I traveled to google land to look up "The Black Holes music". HOORAY! [that i did not find what i feared was there], and HOORAY! again, for finding this.


But! This chapter is NOT closed, my friends. This world has not ended, and morons exist and will continue to do so...fashionably.

I suppose, were this name to be used...there are only 2 ways I wouldn't get pissed. One, would be if all the songs were about the brilliant metaphoric seduction of the black hole. OR, if all the people in the group were feisty black girls.

So, if you fit either of these groups, please snatch the name quickly, before a group of super rad hipsters put a dirty mark on black holes. See, watch this. "I was thinking about black holes today, and" [interrupted] "The Black Holes!? Yeahhh that new band is awwwesome."

OH, I dread the day I see it. "Girls go crazy wild! Boys penises go rock hard! The Black Holes, a hot new indie rockerrr band has blasted into this world without any warning. The intricate stylings of this amaaaazing band..." blahblahblah. The music will be horrible, my face will be contorted and sick, and everyone will eat it up like dog poop injected "chocolate" chip cookies. Stop mistaking those feces for chocolate! Whatever, they probably can't even taste the difference.

Ok. I feel better now. Thanks for listening. Or if you didn't...fine! You do what you want [i don't know you].

Anyway, I guess I'm just excited to be alive. I hope you are too.

Current Mood: curious curious

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Comments
From: brother_boh Date: March 24th, 2004 02:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm so happy you are posting more these days.
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 24th, 2004 02:34 pm (UTC) (Link)

Then I am happy as well.
And, why not?
From: kevinburgio Date: March 24th, 2004 02:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
We both know that we are both individual black holes on a collision course to consume each other.
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 25th, 2004 02:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh, Kevin. This collision course is a magical thing.
xshaunxctx From: xshaunxctx Date: March 24th, 2004 03:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
You have a brilliant way with words.
Your journal is my favorite.
You are my favorite.
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 25th, 2004 02:08 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you Shaun.
I like being favorite.
<3
xshaunxctx From: xshaunxctx Date: March 25th, 2004 02:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
I like you being my favorite.
thedillemmaemma From: thedillemmaemma Date: March 24th, 2004 04:05 pm (UTC) (Link)
Your entries always inspire me.
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 25th, 2004 02:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
[smile]
From: electricsinboy Date: March 24th, 2004 05:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
http://www.mygeekdom.com/modules.php?op=modload&name=News&file=article&sid=604
black holes are fuzzballs?

and there is a band called "Thru Black Holes" http://www.gajoob.com/reviews/t/252.html

so that's my web surfing input for the night.
i will content myself now with musing of a less cerebral sort.
hmmmmm, skittles are awfully tasty...

the weather here in nyc is slowly changing from the whiskerfreezing cold to the dull summer days. it has the whole "finding itself" period where it wonders around between rain and humidity and crispy chills but it's getting there. you still geared up for the clash of the scrabble titans? i assume you'll be here during the balmy days of august since that is the time when my brain pan pops and sizzles like a cast iron skillet on a cast iron stove. but i will drink ice water and cool it off long enough to dazzle you with my word power!
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 25th, 2004 02:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
mm fuzzballs.

and yes, i am sizzling with how ready i am!
i can see your brain sizzling, and i like it.
twodosia From: twodosia Date: March 24th, 2004 11:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
Everything about this entire place amazes me. But the thing that amazes me and irks my curiosity the most is why certain things happen. Is life already planned out to not make any sense? Or is there a way to figure it out? The thing that kills me is that I will never know.
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 25th, 2004 02:14 pm (UTC) (Link)
"The thing that kills me is that I will never know."

Even THAT you do not know.
And that is exciting.
But not worth consuming your time with hope.
I just like to make up my own stories.
twodosia From: twodosia Date: March 25th, 2004 06:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
I go over life in my head at least once a day and realize if I do ever find out the meaning of my life or anyones for that matter and why things happen, I think it would ruin everything. I'd know but then what? What would I do next? I'm curious and all, but if I ever found out everything I ever wanted to know, nothing would be a surprise anymore.

I just like to think about it and try to figure it out. Make up my own reasons on why things happen and stick with them. It's great.
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 26th, 2004 01:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
It is indeed great. I love making up explanations and stories. They dazzle my brain much of the time.

"but if i ever found out everything i ever wanted to know, nothing would be surprise anymore"

I hear people say things such as this or "i don't want to know everything because then i would be bored all the time".

I highly disagree with this way of thinking. And could rant for hours. But that is for another time. Sleepy brains, and odd [only a half-truth] occurance have taken there hold on near future rants. I feel "paused" in a strange and brilliant land. La la la.
yobachi2003 From: yobachi2003 Date: March 25th, 2004 09:44 am (UTC) (Link)
I suppose, were this name to be used...there are only 2 ways I wouldn't get pissed. One, would be if all the songs were about the brilliant metaphoric seduction of the black hole. OR, if all the people in the group were feisty black girls.

lol - what's makes a group of feisty black girls o.k. for the name.


But! This chapter is NOT closed, my friends. This world has not ended, and morons exist and will continue to do so...fashionably.</b>

Ain't that the truth. They'll probably even get elected president again this november. Most people seem to willfully wallow in moronicness.



I think, if I were to only hate one thing [and i do], it would be the fact that so many people live their life not even knowing [or attempting to acknowledge] that is it there. It is!


I think I know what you're saying here, but would you like to elaborate.



Anyway, I guess I'm just excited to be alive. I hope you are too.


Not really.
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 25th, 2004 02:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
Well with any race, or group, there are always girls who are badasses. Not stupid ones, but the smart ones, if you know what I mean.

Girls who don't put up with anyones shit [sophisticatedly]. Girls who are raw and sassy, with a great sense of humor. Girls who have the strength of a man, but don't look like one.

The point being, I can definitely picture these girls having fun making a play on words. They aren't offended by such terms as being called a "hole" because they are above it. Plus, they are interested in such things as black holes.

Ok. Moving on.

With the life thing...there are just a ridiculous amount of people who live their life thinking life is boring and stupid, or whatever. They bitch and moan about everything that is wrong, and never really accomplish much. It's like they put blinders on to all that is strange and beautiful in this world. Like they think they know how everything works, and the way it works for them is that nothing is very interesting or exciting at all.

More? Do I have to!? :)

I'm sorry to hear you are not excited to be alive. What causes this?
yobachi2003 From: yobachi2003 Date: March 26th, 2004 10:09 am (UTC) (Link)
With the life thing...there are just a ridiculous amount of people who live their life thinking life is boring and stupid, or whatever. They bitch and moan about everything that is wrong, and never really accomplish much. It's like they put blinders on to all that is strange and beautiful in this world. Like they think they know how everything works, and the way it works for them is that nothing is very interesting or exciting at all.

Haa, that partially describes me. But in the end I do find things exciting and interesting n life. It's just that the best things are most elusive and often unattainable.


I'm sorry to hear you are not excited to be alive. What causes this?

Hmmmm,*triddle thumbs, turns eyes to upper left corner* Too much bullshit and negativity.
lanky_bastard From: lanky_bastard Date: March 25th, 2004 01:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
Black holes for us geeks
Cue genoside of the hip
Kill indie and cool
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 25th, 2004 02:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
[whispers sweet nothings to your gigantic penis]

p.s. what is your most favorite smell in the whole world?
lanky_bastard From: lanky_bastard Date: March 27th, 2004 06:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
Fresh-baked bread at dawn
Makes what is normally bland
Waft ambrosially
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 28th, 2004 06:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
mmm i love you even more.

because you love the smell of freshly baked bread?
yeah, that's right.
lanky_bastard From: lanky_bastard Date: March 29th, 2004 06:34 am (UTC) (Link)
You're a bad liar
You love me for my haikus
Damn, I feel so used
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 30th, 2004 08:01 pm (UTC) (Link)
EHHH

Wrong answer.
Try again.
lanky_bastard From: lanky_bastard Date: March 31st, 2004 10:03 am (UTC) (Link)

(trying again)

The scented highway
Smell is the roadmap to brain
Up nose, between eyes
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: April 2nd, 2004 11:57 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: (trying again)

There we go.

Much love to you Simon.
From: (Anonymous) Date: March 25th, 2004 01:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
are you trying to look like amelie?
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 25th, 2004 02:34 pm (UTC) (Link)
No. I don't know why you would ask such a silly question.

Actually, of course I do. It's the fact that you don't see why it's silly, that bothers me.

Movies do not exist on their own. They come from the mind of a person who has lived life, seen it, and decided to capture it by making a movie.

Just because I have a similar haircut, and a certain look in my eye, or whatever it is you are addressing, does not mean I am trying to be a movie. And I don't think I look at all similar to her anyway.

It's kind of funny you said this though. Because it's the same reason I would be annoyed if a stupid band named themselves The Black Holes, and became famous. From then on if you like black holes it must be because you heard the super cool band.

Once something is made insanely popular everyone thinks you are trying to be it. Things get popular for a reason, and I wish people would start realizing why it is that it happens.

Anyway. Do your thing.

jetblackcoverup From: jetblackcoverup Date: March 25th, 2004 02:40 pm (UTC) (Link)
amelie? what a fuck statement. "The Black Holes," what a good conversation. one of many that keeps my mind and heart entertained. until the next adventure that is.
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 25th, 2004 05:14 pm (UTC) (Link)
I can't stop thinking about last night, and how surreal it all was. And I find myself often singing "the end of the world", and day dreaming about it all.

Speaking of dreams, I had a dream last night [after the other dream], involving you [i told you so], broken pots, orange jelly beans, and the smiley face with the potato dangling from his[or her] lip.

[i'll tell you about it later. not sooner!]
chuteboxe From: chuteboxe Date: March 25th, 2004 09:58 pm (UTC) (Link)
Emmalee, your the last hope of mankind. Your cat seems so cute i get dizzy, a good kind of dizzy though. Like when I was young and spinning was the highlight of my day. Or am I just a silly boy?
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 26th, 2004 02:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
mm i love that kind of dizzy. and, who wouldn't?

you will never be a silly boy edward.
chuteboxe From: chuteboxe Date: March 26th, 2004 03:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
I still owe you comic books, jelly beans and a shot.
powersparkles From: powersparkles Date: March 26th, 2004 09:45 am (UTC) (Link)
reading your post while listening to the postpunk madness of the chameleons worked, somehow. it's like time stopped for a nanosecond and said "look at me! and listen. and let me inspire you." i think that it's important for us to just stop sometimes and remember how beautiful life can be. feel free to integrate this into your black hole philosophies?

i like to give people hi-fives while saying: "hi-five! it's great to be alive!" i think this is something everyone should do.
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 26th, 2004 02:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
oh, how i love you dave!

you are my magical friend. just like out of fairy tales. i believe it to be true!

p.s. "hi-five! it's great to be alive"- i too, think this is something that needs to be done more.
vitaminpunk From: vitaminpunk Date: March 27th, 2004 08:47 pm (UTC) (Link)


i think

you should be an astronaut.

and also, the person who made the amelie comment needs to get the other half of their brain back. and also, what kind of comment is that? i'm saddened.

i don't have anything cool or special or magical to say, other than hi. =)
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 28th, 2004 06:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
hello beautiful. :)

the magic which our conversations create, misses us, terribly.
isn't that sad?
powersparkles From: powersparkles Date: March 29th, 2004 09:33 am (UTC) (Link)

hi! it's me again.

speaking of black holes, i thought of something. we can solve the global trash crisis if we work together! what if we created a black hole somewhere, like in john travolta's garage, and made every single trash can ever go straight to this black hole. the trash goes into oblivion so no more landfills or trash dumps or other ugliness!
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: March 30th, 2004 01:04 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: hi! it's me again.

that made my day.

possibly my entire week.

really and truely.
kierkergaardog From: kierkergaardog Date: April 2nd, 2004 12:00 pm (UTC) (Link)

gamma ray breasts

Wow. This will be my first I think. But I think you deserve it here. Long time reader first time writer ... (finally fully literate?). I remember when I first got into astronomy, I installed a skylight. The people who lived above me were furious. Signiorina Emily, I had a friend once, his name was Jerome, and we'd blather through the night on the beach about the vast intricacies of the universe. I didn't know what I was talking about, but space is the kind of science that brings credibility to fantasy, and gives the courage to imagine. Jerome is in the Navy now (crazy bastard), I haven't seen him for 4 years, and I miss him. When I met you, though, that river of cosmic curiosity, long dried from lack of interest from others, flowed again with "brain-pantie-tickling" thoughts and fondling of the heavens. So it was, that when a star, perhaps 100 times the mass of our sun, finally collapses under its own gravity, releases an astounding amount of energy, more than any other event in the universe; in 1 second more than the amount of energy the sun releases in its lifetime (9 billion years); a gamma-ray burst. Astronomers detect several of these a day, marking the birth of a new black hole somewhere in the universe. What are they for? A rip in space time, producing jets of material traveling at the speed of light. I think these are easy ways to get to others parallel universes described in quantum theory, perhaps a means for the deceased who truly inhabit the cosmos, including our alien relatives, to form God's Army, and go fight the heathens of what lies beyond the singularity where no light escapes. We all thank you for never being bored.
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: April 2nd, 2004 05:37 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: gamma ray breasts

Thank you for this. [all of it]

This day has been rough until I read your words. I smiled and smiled.

I am happy to have known you this past year. Such a delightful human you are. We should go get a drink sometime next week, so that we can have sloshy conversations, and I can punch your arm for interrupting me so much.

From: pokemyeye Date: April 2nd, 2004 09:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: April 2nd, 2004 10:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
haha.

why is that just for me?

are you calling me a hoochie?

;o)
From: jo3 Date: April 3rd, 2004 08:18 am (UTC) (Link)
"The invariable mark of wisdom is to see the miraculous in the common." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
From: ex_nascent722 Date: April 3rd, 2004 11:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
Im quite sure you think I'm fucked up, but just the other day I was wondering about you wondering how you were. I would like to see you again sometime, hope your doing alright.
girlsetsfire From: girlsetsfire Date: April 4th, 2004 10:37 am (UTC) (Link)
why are you "quite" sure? what evidence do you have to back this up, sir?

i assure you, you are "quite" wrong. i don't think you are fucked up. i always remember you fondly. you are a great character. i too, wonder about how you are. i always imagine some awesome stories going on with you.

i was thinking about the doughnut shop last week, and how strange and hilarious that place was [is, i guess is still exists huh].

but yes, point being i would like to see you again too. jason, we need to tell each other stories! i know you must have plenty for me.

and yes i am doing alright. a little crazy and messy, but alllllright. :)
From: ex_nascent722 Date: April 4th, 2004 09:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
eh, you know. my erractic behavior when I used to use livejournal.

its funny, I have'nt messed with this livejournal bit in quite some time. Im not good with journals, my ego gets too involved, its hard to write freely really. people fog up my thaughts, I think prison would be a nice place to write, or some similar form of isolation

the doughnut shop was something, remember Jacob? quite a bit happened to him, he finally quit after 2 and a half years, and came to Wal-mart were I unfortunately work. Much is to be said about that poor boy.
but yeah, I guess I have a few stories to tell, lets tell some stories sometime. I have a couple chapters to spill, I love hearing other peoples stories aswell.

Im glad you dont think im fucked up, *sheww*, I missed talking to you.

47 human choked on their own vomit and died || ...but i love you